How does it happen....

For some reason I can't sleep, I'm awake, half-plowed, and find some sort of demented pleasure in torturing myself to blog in the wee hours of the night rather than being in bed. That seems to be the growing theme for me these days. In and out…in and out…over and over again.

Anyways......I thought I would try to bore myself to sleep by putting out there a hodge podge of thoughts....

I think..... a lot.

I must to have been that kid that grew up asking why why why???? I'm gonna have to consult with my mother on that to confirm....

Anyhow...even till this day...I look around me and see an establishment or business and wonder...how does it survive out there when there is so much competition? I mean....I'll see a cute little Thai, Indian, Deli or or Sushi place when further down the road are so many others just like it. What makes one particular restaurant stand out and so unique that it stands amongst the rest at having fighting chance at being a thriving business?

I do this when I see couples together as well.....I look at them and wonder....

Where did they meet? how does that happen so easily when there are soooo many people in this big o'l world that they can chose from? What was it about each other that just placed them together, made them fit?....was it through friends, in school? Did their eyes meet across a crowded room....what???? How do you know if it stands a chance? Do you just leap in and pray for the best? Many people have told me it is just something that happens.....

Logically thinking or possibly even wishful thinking.... sure...... I would want to believe that may be the case....but.....if I were to compare it to the business analogy, isn't there a sense of responsibility for showing up every day eager and excited to be there? To be be creative, to stand out? To not be afraid to put all little elbow grease into it even to support it so that it may thrive and be successful? -- I don't know. My guess is that anything important in life is worth the input (the work)....the output is just the rewards that natural come as a result.....and thus leading to something pretty fantastic......

Change....

Sometimes there are things in our life that aren't meant to stay. Sometimes change may not be what we need. Sometimes change is what we really want. And sometimes saying goodbye is the hardest thing you think you'll ever have to do, but sometimes it's saying 'hello again' that breaks you down and makes you the most vulnerable person you'll ever know. Sometimes change is too much to bear, but most of the time change is the only thing saving the person you are becoming....

Sometimes I need to look back and remind myself......

Be Not Afraid

To walk through the darkness - for therein you may find the light;
To take one step at a time - for only then can you complete the journey;
To question - for there you will find the truth;
To hope - from that a dream can grow;
To believe - otherwise, there is nothing;
To trust - for it is the basic element of all relationships;
To give - for in doing so, you shall be given;
To remember - for memories are proof that you have lived;
To cry - tears are a source of healing;
To hurt - from that can come growth;
To laugh - your inner beauty is reflected then;
To start again - there is a chance this time will be even better;
To be independent - for only then will you find yourself;
To set new goals - for then your existence will take on mean­ing;
To share - for happiness is nothing if it's yours alone;
To open the closed door - perhaps what was behind it has changed;
To take a chance - new worlds have been discovered this way;
To, at times, despair - for only then do we appreciate;
To re-examine yourself- for death sets in when growth stops;
To face each new day - if you choose, God will walk beside you each hour;
To make promises - they are the foundations of life;
To plant a small seed - from it the majestic tree grows;
To touch someone - who knows how that small action may change your lives;
To love - for only in that way will you be loved;
To live - only then will past relationships be meaningful;
To die - for therein lies eternal life.

By Elaine Slater Reese